It’s Your Turn

by Tara Agacayak on July 25, 2017

I loved amusement park rides when I was little.

Getting off the merry-go-round at Great America Amusement Park resized

Here I am getting off some ride at Marriott’s Great America (which is what it was called in the late 70’s). Apparently this photo was taken after I said,  “that tickled my tummy”.

When I was in first grade I was invited to a birthday party at my friend’s house.

I was so excited.

I had my party dress, my birthday present, and loads of anticipation.

My friend lived in a large house with a big backyard and play structure with swings and a slide …

And this merry-go-round. It was something like this.


merry go round


There were only 4 places for kids to sit, so we had to wait our turn.

I was waiting in line for the other girls to get off so that I could get on and feel the exhilaration of spinning.

So I could giggle, and have the wind blow in my hair, and spin around and around, and feel my tummy tickle.

I waited.

I was patient.

I stood in line.

I fidgeted with excitement, but I knew my time was coming.

The merry go round was slowing down.

Coming to a stop.

My turn was coming.

Oh my god, I was so excited.

As my friends stepped off of the merry-go-round, I took my step forward to take a seat, and then all of a sudden, this bigger girl stepped in front of me, pushed me back and said, “You had your turn, I’m going now.”

But it wasn’t true!

She’d just gotten off, it was MY turn!

I was speechless.

Forget about missing my turn.

She lied.

She said something that I knew wasn’t true.

But I was so shocked by the experience I didn’t know what to say.

I didn’t have the words.

I didn’t have the power.

There was no adult there to manage the injustice.

I felt victimized and upset and disappointed.

I wanted to feel the joy of riding on the merry-go-round and there I stood in shock while this big bully took my seat on the ride – and by lying!

For many years this experience has had a hold over me.

And I’ve carried the disappointment of not getting my turn on the merry-go-round.

But a number of years ago, I was led through a writing exercise where I got to choose a different ending to this story.

The facilitator told us to write a story where we felt dis-empowered, and then write a new ending.

First, I wrote the ending where I kicked the girl in the shins and placed my butt in the seat while she wallowed in pain, and I laughed at her.

Next, I wrote the ending where I went and tattled, told a parent and got them to get me my seat.

Another ending I wrote is where I banded together with some other girls and we said mean things to her and made her cry.

But none of those endings felt like me.

Finally, I got it … I decided to befriend her. To join forces with her. And to create a mutually-beneficial arrangement where we took turns.

Once she got off, she’d give her seat to me, and once I got off, I’d give my seat to her.

It was a win-win.

That was the ending that felt right.

And it’s the ending I remember today when I remember that experience.

Rewriting that story of my life reminds me that I’m the one who holds the power by the choices and actions I choose to take.

And it reminds me that there are many ways to solve a problem when we get creative about what the ending looks like.

Many of the women I talk to are getting passed over for promotions they are over-qualified for, and walking away from opportunities that could lead to $2.5 million dollars of investment that would help them launch companies that transform the way we live.

But they are telling themselves stories that it’s not their turn, that they can’t convince people to fund them, that it’s difficult to manage team members.

But I know that you can re-write stories that produce different outcomes.

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